How is it even possible that I’m writing this post right now? On one hand it seems like Nathan’s been with us forever, and on the other it feels like he was just born. I haven’t done a month by month update like I did when I was pregnant mostly because I’m still soooo sleep deprived and because I figure three months will make for a good post, plus I never did a postpartum update.
I thankfully was back down to pre-pregnancy weight very quick and was able to fit back into my old clothes. I definitely feel like my body is completely different now and I still have things I want to work on, but since I’m breastfeeding I’m just going to take it slow and not stress about looking a certain way right now.
Immediately after Nathan was born I did go through some baby blues no doubt. I touch more on this in a bit, but I was really concerned that I was developing PPD or PPA – thankfully I felt more myself after about two weeks. I deal with anxiety still but not as bad as those first couple of weeks. I needed so much grace and just encouragement, thank God for Joe and my mom because they were definitely my saving grace
Colic. One word that sends a chill down my spine. I wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy. Since day one it’s been a battle between crying for hours on end, no sleep, gas, and reflux. Holy crap I was thrown for a loop you guys. I think I did as much crying as he did those first few weeks. I honestly was worried for a while that my crying wouldn’t go away. Thankfully, after a few weeks I started to feel less overwhelmed and less like crying all the time – but those hormones were NO joke. My recovery was also a lot harder than I thought it would be so that didn’t help either. I cut out dairy, tried a probiotic, gripe water, gas drops – you name it, we had tried it. I use the Wonder Weeks app and I really do notice when he is going through a leap that he is definitely much more fussy. I honestly think it’s something he’s just growing out of.
He doesn’t cry as much, and we are muchhh happier these days. We are still dealing with only getting about two hour stretches of sleep a night, but are trying to get more into a routine since he is getting older (recommendations welcome).
This season of life won’t last forever and it is going to be the saddest day when I can’t hold him anymore. So, if the only way he wants to sleep is on my chest then that’s just the way it has to be. Just bring on the coffee, cause Lord knows I need it.
He weighs at least 15 pounds (!!!) and that was the last time I weighed him. He is such a little chunk and I love his rolls. He had tiny chicken legs when he was born, but now it’s all chunk.
Ceiling fans! If there is a ceiling fan anywhere in sight he will find it! If I need to get ready for the day I put him in his Rock-N-Play where he can see it so it distracts him for a while!
Eating. If this boy could eat 24/7 he would. Which means I can’t be far for too long (insert sleepy emoji) I’ve tried pumping and honestly it’s not comfortable and I don’t produce enough extra to make it worth it.
Walks. He absolutely loves going on walks in the evening and so do I! It’s hard being a stay at home mom because most days we’re pretty cooped up in the house, so while the weather is nice I am making sure we get out for a walk. He also seems to love car rides and being out and about lately, which makes me soo happy because I love going to Target and being out!
He also loves loves loves to coo and smile. It’s the sweetest thing I’ve ever heard and seen you guys. We got a play mat that he is also loving lately, it’s so fun to find things that catch his attention to entertain him during the day now that he is awake for longer stretches!
Motherhood is hands down the hardest, best, and most fulfilling roller coaster ride I’ve ever been on. I wouldn’t change him for the world, colic and all (lol). He’s truly my best little friend for life. I think that pretty much sums up what’s been going on baby wise!
I am going to do a post very soon with all of the gadgets and things we absolutely love for the newborn stage. I feel like there are some items we couldn’t live without that I want to share. Also, how is it possible that I have a baby and not a newborn now- I can’t deal.